Friday, January 21, 2011

Just keep swimming...

Ever feel like the days go by in slow motion? I couldn't believe how fast 2011 came and now it seems it will be here foorreverrrrr. January is creeping by and I cannot lie, it's depressing me. I have been thinking a lot lately about some of the good ole days. Like three years ago, when Kellen and I were just fresh newly weds getting used to married life, living in that teeny tiny apartment on Center Street in Provo. It was such a sweet, happy time. Not that now isn't happy. I've just been feeling a little lost in reality lately and not enjoying it very much.
I know I really have very little to legitimately complain about but that doesn't stop the downer thoughts from creeping in. We live with great family who love and support us, Kellen is getting a good education to support our family, I have a job that pays the bills, and I'm nearly done with my associates. Maybe being more grateful for all of that will help me get through this funk I've been in lately.
I spent a lot of time over the past few years living in the future because it always seemed to wonderful and promising. Lately, I've been dwelling a lot on the past, like I said about the newly wed times and even just this past year when we were still up in Utah going to UVU, living in Springville. I suppose I have to admit that I didn't realize how much I enjoyed our life until we drastically changed everything. Again, that's not to say that moving here and doing what we have been doing isn't a good thing. I just can't help but miss the way everything was. This has been a big adjustment for both of us. And there are still more to come.
Uncertain futures make me uncomfortable, as I'm sure they do for most people.
Well, that's enough for now. I wish I had more happy things to say but this is what's been on my mind lately. The End.

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